tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-91480368770794712712024-03-13T06:26:21.689-04:00Walking With The BeastThis blog is an open diary into my experience with finding out what works for me to get to where I want to be in this amazing life I have been given. My goal is to just get comfortable writing my feelings down as I work through this process, in the hopes that showing my weakness can help someone else to be strong.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.comBlogger87125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-37751991142582931572015-08-24T14:43:00.000-04:002015-08-24T14:43:04.920-04:003 days off and then on againNew trend for no reason:<br />
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I have been going strong and then fall ALL the way off the wagon for 3 day periods. Then I go back and jump back in like I never stopped.<br />
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Problem is that when I don't go it directly affects my mood....what am I talking about.....the walk with the beast. The beast being my old self that I am trying to shed.<br />
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I see a small change and then I revert back because I'm scared.<br />
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1. Having to go shopping for new clothes and not being in the size I think I should be in. Meaning...I have had the same stretched out clothes for so long that they are starting to not fit and if I go shopping and find out I'm in a 24 (which in my mind I always have been) I will just say screw this and quit for good.<br />
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2. Looking funny. I mean looking like I'm in between sizes and things not fitting appropriately and new lumps and bumps where I'm not used to seeing them....the good ones and the bad ones.<br />
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3. Cost. I have to watch all money and to turn around spending it on myself is selfish in my mind. I know, I gotta get over it. That is gonna take some time.<br />
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4. Worry about going up again. I don't wanna start changing what is going on currently to fit a new body that is emerging and end up swelling back up like the Macy's day parade and having to go shopping for BIGGER clothes....again.<br />
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5. More time working out....I can barely drag myself out of bed now and I have had to adjust my time already to be out of the house by 5. Really should be out of the house by 4:15am that is.....What does that mean for me and my usual routine of nothingness (No. I. Don't. Like. Change.)<br />
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P.S. My boobs are still huge and I have what appears to be 3 booty cheeks.....yuck.<br />
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That is all for today. Hugs and Love. -S.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-2017175632880375712015-08-11T10:53:00.001-04:002015-08-11T10:53:25.982-04:00More WaterMy new goal is to drink more water. I need to get up to about 5 gallons per day. I am currently on gallon one. lol.<br />
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I have drank up to 3 gallons of water a day at one point in time. I slacked off and now I'm ready to pick up the slack. Or, wipe the slate clean and just start brand new.<br />
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I have my favorite orange cup that I am using and that is helpful in keeping me sipping. The part that isn't my friend is how it causes frequent "visits"....but in the past I have found those to slack off as my body gets used to the increase in water intake. So, I will update on my progress here later on.<br />
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Gripe O' Da Day: STILL SORE!!!!<br />
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I keep going, every morning. I get up and I go. However, I am still very sore. I think that I am missing some type of mineral or supplement. I am going to seek out some type of way to get into a hot tub. I REALLY need to soak. I'm talking like five 15 minute sessions of soaking. Its not in my joints, thankfully! Its my tiny muscles, they are screaming. (<span style="font-size: xx-small;">helppppp helppppp helppppp, she won't stop moving</span>) That was the tiny muscles screaming by the way.<br />
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I have also begun to realize that I have a distorted image of what my body actually looks like. I'm not sure how to describe it other than this way: I can tell my clothes are fitting differently in such a short time and I can tell I'm more mobile and I can feel the difference in my range of movement. However, when I look at myself I feel like I am getting fatter and fatter. My stomach looks bigger, my hands feel bigger, my boobs look bigger, my face looks fatter, my neck seems to be turning into rolls and my arms look dimply and flabby. Whew....okay. That was a lot.<br />
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I don't know if this is normal to feel this way or if this is an issue. Either way....I'm still hanging in there people.<br />
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Love and Hugs - S.<br />
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I just discovered yesterday that I have actually been walking two miles a day all this time!!!! I clocked the distance in my car and was truly amazed to realize that from point A to point B was a full mile. Since I have to get back home after my walk.....that's right.... TWO MILES!<br />
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I'm doing a happy dance, trust me you are happy just for not being able to see it...lol. Either way, it explains the soreness and the soreness actually went away for the first time yesterday too.....<br />
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I totally blew off my walk yesterday and I don't even have a real reason why, I just didn't do it. When I don't get up and do it first thing in the morning, the day provides all kinds of excuses for me not to do it later. That is a trap that I have come to recognize and I must overcome that for my own personal reasons.<br />
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I find myself thinking while I'm walking....who am I cheating if I walk slower? Who is getting the short end of the stick when I weasel my way out of making good choices? No one but me. I am the one who reaps the guilt, frustration, bad feelings, depressed mood. Me. I have to do myself a solid and remember that when I am fantasizing about doing less than my best.<br />
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I read some blogs to try to get myself more motivated and it kinda did the opposite. I wanted to read the experiences of others who walked 2 miles a day and how it made them feel, what kind of changes they discovered in their mind, body and spirit. You know what I found instead? People who were fit going on and on about how walking was the laziest exercise every and barely kept you basically fit. What a crock of shit. The all or nothing mentality is what keeps people obese and shunning themselves. Every step you take toward a better you is quite the opposite of lazy. It is empowering. I encourage myself and others to keep taking just that one step to a better you.<br />
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If one step toward a better you is 4 donuts instead of 5, so be it. Next time go down to 3 instead of 4 you donut lover you......<br />
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I'm learning that some is better than none when it comes to taking care of myself specifically. The try is where the change is made. I'm going to keep trying.<br />
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I was standing in the kitchen at work and I was like what is that feeling on my booty area???!!! Guess what it was...a space between my butt cheek and my thigh...lmao....I have a booty cheek now and not just what I lovingly called that area, "my butthigh" (buh thy). I don't recall every feeling that piece of booty before.... I likey.<br />
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Hugs and love to all! -S.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-53207573064842880762015-08-05T09:30:00.003-04:002015-08-05T09:30:52.557-04:00Super IrritatedI know, I know.... right on the heels of a wonderful mindset type of day, here I come with the BS.<br />
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I woke up with a negative attitude this morning. I didn't want to get up, didn't want to go walk, didn't want to drink water, didn't want to shower, didn't want to get dressed, didn't want to pack lunches, didn't want to, rinse. repeat....blah blah blahhhhhhh<br />
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Well, I pushed through it all. I would like to add that I did not smoke a cig this morning. I just didn't want anything. I have some rotten little cuss in my head that is making me want to go in a dark closet and sit there and just mumble mean things. I have ZERO reason as to why.<br />
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Is this normal when beginning an exercise program? I want it to go away. I am a positive and sunny side up person. So, this presence is very toxic to me. Low energy vibrations right now.<br />
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Maybe I'm dehydrated? My muscles are still so sore....its like a new one hurts every day. I can feel the muscles in my cheeks when I yawn...this seems wrong. I don't want a strong face. Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!<br />
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Okay...carry on. Hugs and Love (from a sourpuss) -S.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-6155520924586754782015-08-04T11:24:00.000-04:002015-08-04T11:24:11.654-04:00I Did 10 and Rested 1Alright, here's the latest on me....<br />
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I walked one mile a day for ten days straight! I was just plain tired on the 11th day so I didn't do anything. I got up and got back out there again today!<br />
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I am threatening to walk again tonight. I feel a little guilty about missing that one day. I know I shouldn't but I set a goal to just walk a mile a day for the rest of my days. I guess that was unrealistic? I was also going to punish myself by making myself count my days over from the beginning.....but that is counterproductive too.<br />
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I have to learn to be nicer to myself. I am working on it. I'm noticing that walking is also helping me cleanse myself of anger. I'm pretty angry most of the time and it comes from all kind of places, but I push it down and I don't address it. Walking gives me a moment away from even my own self. I think it is making me feel happier. I will continue testing that theory...stay tuned.<br />
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Changes I have noticed so far:<br />
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None physically. Oddly enough every time I start working out I feel like I am bigger than I was before....and the pain from being sedentary is fairly pronounced. I feel super old and out of shape. Which I am, but I'm working on it. While showering, I did notice that I saw a bit more of my hip than I am used to seeing, so something is rearranging at the very least.<br />
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Weight check? NO. Not yet. I'm gonna try to stay off the scale until my birthday. Sept. 26. I am predicting that I will be at 290 by then. I know you are thinking...well what are you now????!!! lol. At last check I was at about 318 - 19 and that was at least two months ago. So, that is a VERY conservative estimate because I should be able to drop forty pounds by then. That's a total of 53 days. We will see where we land. Sept. 26, 2015....first updated weight check day.<br />
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I send out lots of light and love to all of you and hope that life continues to flow in a positive direction for all. Hugs and love -S.<br />
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<br />S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-33738622408250574572015-07-28T10:05:00.001-04:002015-07-28T10:05:26.001-04:00Sore ALL OVER!!!Hey hey hey hey!!!<br />
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It's your old pal Krusty.... j/k...its just me.<br />
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I am on my fifth straight day of walking and I am SO SORE ALL OVER! I feel like even my eyelids are sore. (tragic)<br />
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I am being honest with myself and realize I am in a phase where I can not take one day off because I will just stop doing everything. I have to stay in motion. So, I don't see a day off coming for at least the next month.<br />
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I started out doing a 30 minute mile and I have knocked that down to a 20 minute mile already. I know that isn't super fast for all but it is super fast for me. I am making it out of the house at about 5:45 am. I need to get that time to 5:00am to give myself the right amount of time if I decide to go a little further than the mile. Baby steps.<br />
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Another win this week is that I was able to put on a 2x outfit. I can't recall the last time I was able to do this and not look like someone was trying to put a bag over my head and kidnap me. So, YAY!<br />
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Best wishes....Hugs and Love to All! -S.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-46920475069569248532015-07-15T13:52:00.001-04:002015-07-15T13:52:22.067-04:00Crossed My Legs Under the DeskHello All!!!<br />
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My victory for today is that I crossed my legs under my desk at work. How cool is that? Pretty cool is the answer....lol.<br />
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I additionally ran across an old college mate's blogspot and ya'll should check it out. I'm inspired by her story and it is ongoing which is cool too. You can see it at itsyahztime.blogspot.com<br />
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Either way. I looked into a trip to Europe for next year when school let's out for Cade. She is very in love with the European Culture and wants to visit London. I want to make that happen for her. It would be nice for me too (secret yay).<br />
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Still haven't felt the urge to move...did not go on the walk I threatened to go on the other day either. However, I have been eating better. I did succumb to a homemade grilled cheese last night and haven't gone without my cocktail yet. The water has been increased so I am NOT complaining.<br />
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I do want to start going to the gym when I wake up in the middle of the night and can't go back to sleep. I will let ya'll know how that goes. Laying out my gym clothes will make it easier to grab and go...maybe I will try that.<br />
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Nothing else significant to report today...<br />
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Be well and know I'm sending hugs and love to all. -S.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-74704423505390345422015-07-07T11:29:00.001-04:002015-07-07T11:29:19.650-04:00Day 1 of Project MeHello (hello, hello, hello, hello) is anyone out there (there, there, there, there),<br />
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So, I know it has been better than a year since I have even come to look at this blog. This is an ongoing trend in my life...starting and then, well, you get the picture.<br />
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I'm starting again. This time I'm a little older and more mature. I'm calling this new beginning "Project Me".<br />
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This is day one.<br />
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Got up, packed Cade's lunch, packed my lunch (chicken salad), made some tea and smoked a cig. I made it to work on time and started a generally productive day.<br />
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My plans for the evening:<br />
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Take a short walk around the neighborhood<br />
Have Dinner (mushroom chicken with broccoli)<br />
Write down my feelings<br />
Talk positively about a friend on FB as my status<br />
Have a night cap<br />
Lay my clothes out for tomorrow<br />
Go to bed by 11pm<br />
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Until then....hugs and love -S.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-49518711526083736932014-04-30T08:43:00.004-04:002014-04-30T08:43:53.613-04:00Disgusted and Fed UpSo, if nothing else this blog will serve to show how many failed attempts a person can make at getting "wherever" they are trying to go.<div>
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I am angry, tired, and disgusted. There is nothing anyone else can do about how I am feeling but me. I am in a "hell no, we won't go" state of mind today. I don't see it changing for a while either. </div>
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I am not apologetic and I am damn sure not attempting to be uplifting in any sort of way. I am not blaming anyone or asking for any sympathy or understanding or consolation or tough talk or ANYTHING!</div>
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I finally get happy with me <strike>(complacent)</strike> and now its too late. Day late and a dollar short because now I really DO NOT HAVE A CHOICE and I am burning fire ants mad about it. </div>
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F this and F that and F, F, F, F, F.</div>
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The ONLY reason I went for a walk this morning was out of pure anger. I have no drive or determination or cute outfit I want to wear one day in the unpromised future.....I'm just pissed the F off. </div>
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That's all I have to say. </div>
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w: 322</div>
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Mood: Psychotically Angry</div>
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Breakfast: Egg Cups (2) (egg whites, sun dried tomatoes, turkey sausage, cheddar cheese, mushrooms, green peppers, and red onions)</div>
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Lunch: Tossed salad with 1/4 cup of turkey, 1 egg, 1/2 cup tomatoes, 2 cups iceburg lettuce, 2 tbs ranch</div>
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Dinner: 6 oz. pork</div>
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S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-16116362558278353032014-03-27T10:17:00.000-04:002014-03-27T10:17:25.569-04:00319.9Hey out there!!!!<br />
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Okay, we have established that I am a slack poster....don't judge me.<br />
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I am officially 319.9, I just made it into the 300 teen's but damn it, I'm there.<br />
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Wanted to share that quickie. I will post later. I'm not giving up! Hugs to you all! -S.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-33192515193990133252013-11-18T08:23:00.000-05:002013-11-18T08:23:14.121-05:0011/18/13 - MorningHey there!<br />
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So, I have been battling a chest cold that keeps moving between my head and chest. I stopped walking about 7 or 8 days ago on a daily basis because I just couldn't get my body to do more in the sicky phase. This is my third week with this but it seems to be letting up some. I did go for an hour and a half - two hour walk on Sunday with my daughter through the woods. It was so peaceful and we took some awesome "selfies". I will be doing that on a regular basis as it was very calming and I also walked on uneven terrain so it was challenging too!<br />
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I am learning to enjoy movement over trying to lose weight. My body is changing for the better. Things are tightening up. I'm not starving all the time and I am paying attention to keeping myself hydrated so that rocks too! I'm still here and still going strong.<br />
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I signed up for a 30 Burpees/30 days challenge. I'm spreading the burpees throughout the day though. May be going to a yoga class tonight. Its a yoga/pilates mix.....pray for my inflexible muscles....lol. Hugs to me and you all!!!! -S.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-21081240477886165192013-11-04T08:34:00.000-05:002013-11-04T08:34:35.433-05:0011/04/13 - MorningHello!<br />
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I hope that everyone has been doing well. I have been working my booty off (literally) and have yet to give up or give in!!!!<br />
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I am not following Dukan exclusively but rather pulling on years of dieting experience and doing what I know will work for me as a lifestyle change. So, 90% Dukan and 10% my ideas!!!<br />
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I am logging in today with a weight of 326.5. Which is a great deal down from where I started a couple of weeks back (again). I am really happy with my progress and my energy levels are increasing. I am still getting up for my 5 or 5:30am walks and I have joined a gym as well. I went for my first day yesterday and it was really needed. Zen.<br />
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Anyhoo. Keep your head in the game and remember you aren't the only one! Stay strong cause I will. Hugs to me and you!!!! -S.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-69247227717068990202013-10-24T08:30:00.001-04:002013-10-24T08:30:38.789-04:0010/24/13 - MorningI am paying the piper for my little jig of disaster with the mac and cheese temptress. I'm up a couple of pounds from yesterday. Yesterday I was 331.8 and today I am 333.9. :(<br />
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However, I still got up and went for my walk and I did my meditation last night as promised. I also took a mini 10 minute walk last night to continue to try to appease the mac and cheese gods.....I don't know if it worked but I'm pushing forward!!!! Onward lifestyle changing soldier!!!! I also skipped my nightcap. Not willingly but either way I made it through. Didn't fall asleep until after 1am but I feel very rested.<br />
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I plan to go walk through the county park this weekend. They have a nature trail. Shanna went already and she liked it, so I must see.....<br />
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I have been taking all of my meds for my bs/bp as well. I am being good. It feels good to be good, most of the time anyhoo.<br />
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Since I have been walking this week it is KILLING ME to go up the stairs at work. Why is that??????? ugh. Well, I hope everyone has a wondermuss day and loves themselves just the way you are at this moment in time!!! Hugs to me and you!S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-68572247816903020062013-10-23T10:01:00.000-04:002013-10-23T10:01:49.342-04:0010/23/13 - MorningSo, I cheated last night when I danced with the devil....that devil's name you ask???? Cheesy Cheeseburger Macaroni!!!!!!! Shanna makes this AMAZING cheeseburger mac and I can not keep myself from eating it. It started with me asking her to make it for "Cadence". Then is turned into, "I will just have a small spoonful". Then rapidly (and without fail might I add) went into overdrive.....picture: me, spoon, skillet.......end of story<br />
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My daughter stood behind me saying "Just stop eating it, Mom"and I was all "I can't!!!!" It was, in a word, DELICIOUS. However, I do have some remorse today as I was doing well. Long story, short I was 400 calories over what I should have had yesterday. I am going to pay it back with a second walk tonight.<br />
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On a happier note, I did exercise this morning but will save my meditation for tonight. I got up at 5am but realized that I will need to get up at 4 in order to do my meditation and my walk without feeling like I am under the gun.<br />
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I'm excited about today and happy to have my life. I love it!!!! I hope everyone is feeling well. Hugs to me and to you! -S.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-88755128604648761412013-10-22T08:36:00.001-04:002013-10-22T08:36:20.562-04:0010/22/13 - MorningSo, this morning started off with meditation. 40 minutes of meditation as a matter of fact. It was excellent! I feel at ease in my spirit this morning and that is way more than I am able to thank God for, but thanks anyway, BIG GUY!!!<br />
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I found a really cool app named "Lose it!" for iphone. I'm not sure if it is available on android or not. Anyhoo, it helps to log the food that you are eating, tracks the calories in the food, provides a target calorie range and shows how much fat, carbs, sat fat, fiber, sodium, etc. that you are eating. It even allows you to log your exercise and gives you more calories as a treat!!! Woohoo!<br />
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I walked this morning as well and it was a nice walk (I took my little dog too) :0). I am still feeling motivated. Which is good for me. I usually can find some reason to take a break or quit but so far so good. Day by day.<br />
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While I was listening to my guided meditation, it talked about listening to your body for hunger queues and it said that if you are hungry and want something sugary, bready, or sweetie then you are NOT hungry. Any true hunger should be able to be satiated with a bit of protein, veg, or a small piece of fruit, or a handful of nuts. This actually made sense to me. Halloween is upon us kiddies and that means sweets in my house. I am dreading it. Food is truly an addiction and I have decided I am going in recovery. My stomach was giving me the blues yesterday just begging me for food, anything....and my mouth was in cahoots!!! Trying to sabotage my heart and head. I fought the good fight though and didn't have any slip ups! I deliberately had my nightcap but after logging that and really for the first time seeing how many calories are in it...I'm like....hmph. NOT WORTH IT. So, gotta figure out a different way to cap my night.<br />
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Sugar-free crap......I don't think there is much more to say about that except that....crap. The less of that crap I eat and add to coffee and tea or whatever, the less I want the real thing.....imagine that...wanting a real version of a morphed duplication. The mind ponders. lol. Not really. Stay off of sugar free crap. It gives you diabetes.....how do I know??? Check my sugar. Well, I'm off to enjoy my workday. Hugs and Love to me and you. -S.<br />
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<br />S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-36197508707633167472013-10-21T08:27:00.002-04:002013-10-21T08:27:47.862-04:0010/21/13 - MorningWhen I started this blog I had the best intentions. Thoughts on becoming a new me, thinking "This is it!, this is the diet I have been looking for that is going to change my existence". I was a fool. There is nothing wrong with the diet or me. I can tell you though that I am the same weight as when I started this nearly two years ago. Why? Good question, and I do not have an answer for you.<br />
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I am in poor health. I have diabetes and high blood pressure and I am obese. I live a sedentary lifestyle and I don't miss my ritual nightcap(s) either. Why would I want this life? Why would I continue to CHOOSE to live this way on a daily basis. Why would I enjoy this? Yes, I must enjoy it or I would not continue to live this way.... maybe I feel trapped. My relationship with food is like that of a battered spouse. I keep letting myself be abused by my intake of its "love". I won't reach out for help, I'm scared to leave, I make plans to leave and start anew and I keep laying down with it every night.<br />
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I am trying again. I am in escape mode....again. Am I looking for support? NO. Am I looking for someone to identify with me? NO. Am I trying to figure out who the hell I have become.....maybe. My struggle with what I allow in my mouth and what I do with my body is the biggest obstacle I have ever dealt with in my life. Food has been my friend, my lover, my mother, my father, my brother, my sister, my child, my teacher, my preacher and even my demi-god. I have worshipped chocolate chip cookies. I have worshipped a fat steak. Either way it goes, food has an addictive control over my life. It is my slave master. I am owned.<br />
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So, how do I change this? How do I morph this. I have no clue. But I am going to try again. Right now. Not next week or after breakfast or in the morning. Right now. I forgive myself for failure in the past. I will no longer be the toy of an inanimate object. I will control my mouth and my body. They have been issued to me to take care of and I have a job to get done. I pray you find your way as well. Hugs to all. I'm back. -S.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-13810533253862986032013-04-08T10:21:00.001-04:002013-04-08T10:21:24.824-04:00So it has been over a month since my last post........and I have decided that I am going to stop apologizing. I will come here and post when I feel like it and when I don't I won't and until I have a better attitude that is just that.....Hmph!<br />
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Alright, aversion tantrum complete. I am going to do a better job but I really am not going to apologize...I am perfectly imperfect and to quote everyone's fave baby dinosaur "Gotta love me".....<br />
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I have stopped smoking. Don't know if I every mentioned that I did on here before but I did. I always told my doctor that it was 2 or 4 cigs a day but in reality it was half a pack or more a day depending on how I was feeling....I still tell the same "2 or 3" drinks a day lie but I am working on that too! Don't judge me!<br />
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But this is my 4th week not smoking and I am pretty damn proud of myself. I was smoking for silly reasons anyway...because a friend of mine used to and I wanted to be like her over 15 years ago....pure insanity.<br />
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I'm maturing though and dropping all these cutely wrapped packages of crap I have collected throughout life. Smoking was one of the worst and I have to say that I can actually thank those "Tips from Smokers" commercials for the success in actually quitting.<br />
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The one in particular that made me go.......NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! was the one where this womans finger tips and toes were all gone and this young man's legs were gone due to cardiovascular disease which promoted poor circulation from smoking!!!!!! It's horrible to think of. So, I quit. Thank you PSA's. The link is here: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-WrWwUsKKN8">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-WrWwUsKKN8</a><br />
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Then to stay quit, I have been watching another stop smoking commercial from Australia......this one is not for those with week stomachs so if that is you do not watch the linked video below but shock treatment works best for me.....it is very jarring but helps me remember why I have quit when the cravings try to get the best of me. The link is here: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8rSrrSTW0UU">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8rSrrSTW0UU</a><br />
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So, moving back to weight loss....now I have to work on my drinking. That I will be reducing over the next couple of weeks....no cold turkey on that one....but I will reduce by one each week until I am down to zero, shouldn't take more than 2 weeks to reduce the frequency and volume both.<br />
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I have lost about 4 pounds....but I know I can do much better. Need to add back in the exercise and the oat bran.<br />
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How is everyone out there doing? Talk to me if you can. Hugs to you all. I miss my bloggy buds.....Hugs!S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-11408093633696387182013-03-05T08:15:00.002-05:002013-03-05T08:15:54.759-05:00Time keeps on slippin'Hey Ya'll,<br />
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I'm still trying to stay on track and keep myself focused. The walking has been going well and I am getting stronger as each week passes by. No real results to post right now because I have been very on and off with the eating part so I pretty much am just maintaining instead of losing.....I know, that needs to change. <br />
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I am going to an event this weekend and bought the cutest little dress. It isn't really black tie appropriate but I am going to dress it up with my accessories and hair...wish me luck!<br />
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Work is going well, nothing to report there either. <br />
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I will have internet again after tomorrow, so I will pick up my posts then, maybe be accountable.....we can dream. <br />
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I hope you all are doing well and staying on plan.....I send my hugs.......<br />
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-S.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-21391901216133515822013-01-28T08:27:00.001-05:002013-01-28T08:27:10.383-05:00Happy Monday!Okay, so I am aware the title is an oxymoron but what are you gonna do? lol<br />
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Life is going well, no real news to report. I kept a blood sugar of 129 across the weekend and then this morning it was up to 175....I didn't walk for the past three days but will get back on that today. My eating has still been right on track. I did make some pita chips this weekend but they were made from good stuff at home. <br />
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I need another water bottle cause I can't seem to keep up with the one I have and I don't like sharing water bottles within the household for various reasons. <br />
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A little discord in the household because some people like to lie alot but its all good because I always land on my feet so I just gotta remember that I have to count on me and stop letting other people think I need them when they could give a crap less about me.....ya know!<br />
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I'm hoping for a good solid week, those are my plans anyway....looking forward to the weekend already but I will make sure to find something to enjoy about each day on the way there. I hope everyone is having a wonderful day so far and if not get busy making it a good day. <br />
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Hugs....S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-4289202423668154602013-01-23T16:02:00.001-05:002013-01-23T16:02:19.716-05:00More not so great health news....Hey All,<br />
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Well, I went to the doctor yesterday and got all my lab results back. Apparently I have been on death's doorbell for quite some time, I'm glad he was out busy collecting others and didn't realize I was trying to get in....sheesh.<br />
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A1C = 12.3<br />
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Cholesterol: = 230<br />
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These were the bad numbers<br />
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Everything else was in a decent range, thank GOD!<br />
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I have to go to the cardiologist tomorrow and I also get a CT scan tomorrow to figure out what is going on with my lymph node behind my ear, its freaking out on me too. <br />
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Either way, I have still been doing well. Nothing remarkable to report. Just trying to keep myself focused on making positive changes and enjoying my life more. Tired of hiding. <br />
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Angel posted a comment saying it was too bad it took all of this.....unfortunately, I'm just one of those people....I have to get hit by the bus to move out of the street. <br />
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Its okay though, I just know what matters now and I'm excited about changing. I want to see these numbers go down....I will update tomorrow on what happens at the cardiologist.....eeeeeekkkkkkk.<br />
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Hugs....S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-24871650037669632042013-01-21T08:33:00.001-05:002013-01-21T08:33:28.821-05:00Doing well so far...Hey again,<br />
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So the stats are, I am down from 334 to 323.2 weight wise since the 16th of Janurary. BS wise, I'm down from 589 to 169.....so things are looking up!<br />
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I have been cataloging EVERYTHING that I put into my food hole....its actually starting to become a welcomed thing to do. I have walked everyday since the 16th of January as well, except for Sunday. I have officially decided that I take Sunday off.<br />
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I made it to 6 laps on Saturday, which is really good because I had only been doing 4 laps. So this week my goal is to walk 5 laps everyday until Saturday and on Saturday I will bump the next week up to 6 laps each day until the following Saturday after that......baby steps.<br />
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I have worked myself up to 5 liters of water a day as well. I actually look forward to drinking my water now where as before I would dread it. <br />
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Changes are happening.....nearly dying makes it easier to change I guess......hell, whatever works!<br />
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Hugs to you all and best wishes on continued motivation and success!!!!S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-14668719662840109012013-01-17T14:26:00.000-05:002013-01-17T14:26:55.248-05:00So, this must be the last stop on this route.....I'm here and I'm here to stay....good or bad, I must be true to this way of life. <br />
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So, guess what happened.....I almost went into a diabetic coma...yep. Sure did. BS was 589. Then it just said "Hi" and it wasn't passing by or being polite.....that translated to "What did you not understand about 589, your blood sugar is molasses"<br />
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Went to the ER and I'm still here. This just happened on Monday. I am pretty ashamed that I let myself get to that point. I didn't even realize how bad off I was. I hadn't taken my BS in a month.....not good.<br />
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So, I am back with a vengence and guess what....no one even had to prod me into exercising...I scared myself enough to do it myself.<br />
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Hugs to you all, I won't quit this time. NEVER SAY DIE.....Let's do this.S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-59710877327030563342012-08-31T08:55:00.001-04:002012-08-31T08:55:38.636-04:00322Hey All,<br />
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So that is the number for the day. It's good number, a number I haven't seen since I started this thing....hoping off and on has not helped but I am finally back on with a seat belt and things are moving along at a decent pace. <br />
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Yesterday was an all around bad day personally, however, I am doing alright today. Lots of bills to pay this month so I'm not really sure how in the world I am going to make it through the month but God always provides and things come from amazing places to keep my family safe and covered by his grace, so I won't worry my life away over it. I do however have to be aware of how I am paying on things and how I am spending on things. Those are two TOTALLY differen things. <br />
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Well, wish me luck for the day and I wish the same for each and every one of you. <br />
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Hugs....<br />
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S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-87957510271019029622012-08-30T08:53:00.000-04:002012-08-30T08:53:01.554-04:00Blood Sugar Spike???!!!Hello All,<br />
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So remember how I was saying that my blood sugar was doing well.......pump the brakes! I have no idea what is going on but it shot up on me today. Last night it was 85 and this morning it was 177...I took a second reading and that said 198!!!!! WTH??????? <br />
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I have been really strict on myself and I have been doing what I would call very very well, what is the right hook from the diabetes department??? How dare you little sugars......I'll get you and your little dog too.....<br />
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Anyway, I am not going to fret, I have been taking my medications as prescribed, drinking my water and eating on plan...so, what's that you say??? Where is the exercise part??? Yeah, that thing. I do need to get on the good foot in regard to that. <br />
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So, that's it...red alert has been issued regarding why I need to exercise because I refuse to allow this good track of blood sugars to go wonky while I'm trying to do the right things....stuff like that makes you wanna say "I should have eaten the cake"....maybe looking at it cause the issue...I don't know, I just know I will not get frustrated and use this as an excuse to get off track. <br />
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I'm full speed ahead right now and I am going to keep moving forward. Scales went down again today, so that is a plus for me. <br />
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Hugs....S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9148036877079471271.post-11153716950417686322012-08-29T16:58:00.000-04:002012-08-29T16:58:42.394-04:00Feeling Great!The scale is starting to move again. I am excited because I will be able to go grocery shopping either tomorrow or Friday and stock up on some more palatable items.<br />
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How is everyone else doing today? <br />
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Hugs!S.O.S.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14688809837221010919noreply@blogger.com0