So it has been over a month since my last post...

.....and I have decided that I am going to stop apologizing. I will come here and post when I feel like it and when I don't I won't and until I have a better attitude that is just that.....Hmph!

Alright, aversion tantrum complete. I am going to do a better job but I really am not going to apologize...I am perfectly imperfect and to quote everyone's fave baby dinosaur "Gotta love me".....

I have stopped smoking. Don't know if I every mentioned that I did on here before but I did. I always told my doctor that it was 2 or 4 cigs a day but in reality it was half a pack or more a day depending on how I was feeling....I still tell the same "2 or 3" drinks a day lie but I am working on that too! Don't judge me!


But this is my 4th week not smoking and I am pretty damn proud of myself. I was smoking for silly reasons anyway...because a friend of mine used to and I wanted to be like her over 15 years ago....pure insanity.

I'm maturing though and dropping all these cutely wrapped packages of crap I have collected throughout life. Smoking was one of the worst and I have to say that I can actually thank those "Tips from Smokers" commercials for the success in actually quitting.

The one in particular that made me go.......NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! was the one where this womans finger tips and toes were all gone and this young man's legs were gone due to cardiovascular disease which promoted poor circulation from smoking!!!!!! It's horrible to think of. So, I quit. Thank you PSA's. The link is here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-WrWwUsKKN8

Then to stay quit, I have been watching another stop smoking commercial from Australia......this one is not for those with week stomachs so if that is you do not watch the linked video below but shock treatment works best for me.....it is very jarring but helps me remember why I have quit when the cravings try to get the best of me. The link is here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8rSrrSTW0UU


So, moving back to weight loss....now I have to work on my drinking. That I will be reducing over the next couple of weeks....no cold turkey on that one....but I will reduce by one each week until I am down to zero, shouldn't take more than 2 weeks to reduce the frequency and volume both.

I have lost about 4 pounds....but I know I can do much better. Need to add back in the exercise and the oat bran.

How is everyone out there doing? Talk to me if you can. Hugs to you all. I miss my bloggy buds.....Hugs!

Time keeps on slippin'

Hey Ya'll,

I'm still trying to stay on track and keep myself focused. The walking has been going well and I am getting stronger as each week passes by. No real results to post right now because I have been very on and off with the eating part so I pretty much am just maintaining instead of losing.....I know, that needs to change.

I am going to an event this weekend and bought the cutest little dress. It isn't really black tie appropriate but I am going to dress it up with my accessories and hair...wish me luck!

Work is going well, nothing to report there either.

I will have internet again after tomorrow, so I will pick up my posts then, maybe be accountable.....we can dream.

I hope you all are doing well and staying on plan.....I send my hugs.......

-S.

Happy Monday!

Okay, so I am aware the title is an oxymoron but what are you gonna do? lol

Life is going well, no real news to report. I kept a blood sugar of 129 across the weekend and then this morning it was up to 175....I didn't walk for the past three days but will get back on that today. My eating has still been right on track. I did make some pita chips this weekend but they were made from good stuff at home.

I need another water bottle cause I can't seem to keep up with the one I have and I don't like sharing water bottles within the household for various reasons.

A little discord in the household because some people like to lie alot but its all good because I always land on my feet so I just gotta remember that I have to count on me and stop letting other people think I need them when they could give a crap less about me.....ya know!

I'm hoping for a good solid week, those are my plans anyway....looking forward to the weekend already but I will make sure to find something to enjoy about each day on the way there. I hope everyone is having a wonderful day so far and if not get busy making it a good day.

Hugs....

More not so great health news....

Hey All,

Well, I went to the doctor yesterday and got all my lab results back. Apparently I have been on death's doorbell for quite some time, I'm glad he was out busy collecting others and didn't realize I was trying to get in....sheesh.

A1C = 12.3

Cholesterol: = 230

These were the bad numbers

Everything else was in a decent range, thank GOD!

I have to go to the cardiologist tomorrow and I also get a CT scan tomorrow to figure out what is going on with my lymph node behind my ear, its freaking out on me too.

Either way, I have still been doing well. Nothing remarkable to report. Just trying to keep myself focused on making positive changes and enjoying my life more. Tired of hiding.

Angel posted a comment saying it was too bad it took all of this.....unfortunately, I'm just one of those people....I have to get hit by the bus to move out of the street.

Its okay though, I just know what matters now and I'm excited about changing. I want to see these numbers go down....I will update tomorrow on what happens at the cardiologist.....eeeeeekkkkkkk.

Hugs....

Doing well so far...

Hey again,

So the stats are, I am down from 334 to 323.2 weight wise since the 16th of Janurary. BS wise, I'm down from 589 to 169.....so things are looking up!

I have been cataloging EVERYTHING that I put into my food hole....its actually starting to become a welcomed thing to do. I have walked everyday since the 16th of January as well, except for Sunday. I have officially decided that I take Sunday off.

I made it to 6 laps on Saturday, which is really good because I had only been doing 4 laps. So this week my goal is to walk 5 laps everyday until Saturday and on Saturday I will bump the next week up to 6 laps each day until the following Saturday after that......baby steps.

I have worked myself up to 5 liters of water a day as well. I actually look forward to drinking my water now where as before I would dread it.

Changes are happening.....nearly dying makes it easier to change I guess......hell, whatever works!

Hugs to you all and best wishes on continued motivation and success!!!!

So, this must be the last stop on this route.....

I'm here and I'm here to stay....good or bad, I must be true to this way of life.

So, guess what happened.....I almost went into a diabetic coma...yep. Sure did. BS was 589. Then it just said "Hi" and it wasn't passing by or being polite.....that translated to "What did you not understand about 589, your blood sugar is molasses"

Went to the ER and I'm still here. This just happened on Monday. I am pretty ashamed that I let myself get to that point. I didn't even realize how bad off I was. I hadn't taken my BS in a month.....not good.

So, I am back with a vengence and guess what....no one even had to prod me into exercising...I scared myself enough to do it myself.

Hugs to you all, I won't quit this time. NEVER SAY DIE.....Let's do this.

322

Hey All,

So that is the number for the day. It's good number, a number I haven't seen since I started this thing....hoping off and on has not helped but I am finally back on with a seat belt and things are moving along at a decent pace.

Yesterday was an all around bad day personally, however, I am doing alright today. Lots of bills to pay this month so I'm not really sure how in the world I am going to make it through the month but God always provides and things come from amazing places to keep my family safe and covered by his grace, so I won't worry my life away over it. I do however have to be aware of how I am paying on things and how I am spending on things. Those are two TOTALLY differen things.

Well, wish me luck for the day and I wish the same for each and every one of you.

Hugs....