Disgusted and Fed Up

So, if nothing else this blog will serve to show how many failed attempts a person can make at getting "wherever" they are trying to go.

I am angry, tired, and disgusted. There is nothing anyone else can do about how I am feeling but me. I am in a "hell no, we won't go" state of mind today. I don't see it changing for a while either. 

I am not apologetic and I am damn sure not attempting to be uplifting in any sort of way. I am not blaming anyone or asking for any sympathy or understanding or consolation or tough talk or ANYTHING!

I finally get happy with me (complacent) and now its too late. Day late and a dollar short because now I really DO NOT HAVE A CHOICE and I am burning fire ants mad about it. 

F this and F that and F, F, F, F, F.

The ONLY reason I went for a walk this morning was out of pure anger. I have no drive or determination or cute outfit I want to wear one day in the unpromised future.....I'm just pissed the F off. 

That's all I have to say. 

w: 322

bs: 232

bp: 165/91

Mood: Psychotically Angry

Breakfast: Egg Cups (2) (egg whites, sun dried tomatoes, turkey sausage, cheddar cheese, mushrooms, green peppers, and red onions)

Lunch: Tossed salad with 1/4 cup of turkey, 1 egg, 1/2 cup tomatoes, 2 cups iceburg lettuce, 2 tbs ranch

Dinner: 6 oz. pork

64 oz water