Starting Over AAAAHHHHHHGain.... :0)

Hello Everyone!

So, I am starting over again today. Fresh and new. I recieved a response to an email that I sent out as a cry for help and it is working on my brain stem right now.

I am also going to lay off the booze and cigs. That seems to be the biggest trap for me in regard to my "sticking to the plan" getting thwarted. So, no more cocktails....going for sugar-free mocktails now...and wouldn't you know...Crystal Light actually has some.

Additionally......another big bite off the "Set Shaye Free" apple.....I am putting the cigarettes down. I have really been thinking alot within the past few months about leaving them alone. I don't even enjoy them anymore, I just keep DOING it. Purely habit driven.

So there it is.....I am pretty much a person where I have to clamp down real tight to get the changes made and I have been living like I don't know that about myself. Some people can do one at a time and feel great not letting go all at once. However, I have to do a clear cut of it all to get on task. I'm here.

Thank you all for your continued support of my blog and I hope to be posting good news here regarding these changes and if not....love me anyway!

Hugs!

Starting Again.....dejavu????

Hey All,

So, I have decided I'm just going to keep starting again and again and again until I get this thing right. My thought for today is a car with a full tank of gas. That is where I am right now. My tank is on FULL!!!! Which means that I should work on the maintenance of my "vehicle" and work on using gas and pimping my ride!!! :0)

I am having some yogurt for breakfast and I will probably have some tuna for lunch....Dinner is up in the air right now but I'm thinking chicken. We will see though. I am going to focus on keeping fluids moving through my system today and that is all I am pledging.

I hope that everyone has been doing well.

For anyone that actually reads this blog, I hope that I am demonstrating (although I wish I wasn't) that weight loss and changing a hard coded lifestyle isn't always as easy as 1-2-3. Sometimes A-B-C's get mixed up in there but I will not give up on me. I won't let me get me. I'm going to keep pushing forward and make these changes.

Hugs!!!!

Best Load Bearing Exercise Ever...It will exhaust you though....

Hello People!!!!

So, I have discovered the best load bearing activity ever...guaranteed to take the wind out of you and knock the socks off your feet! It will leave you with your head hung and your back against the wall EVERY SINGLE TIME YOU DO IT!!!!

What is it you say?

Carrying yesterdays......that's right! You too can carry yesterdays.....the fine print? You can't train for walking with tomorrow and enjoying today at the same time. Not responsible for the guilt, shame and depression that come standard with the carrying of yesterdays. No refunds.

This is my task for today. To drop the yesterdays...I have quite a few of them that I neatly tuck inside a little red suitcase that fits neatly in my chest....its called my heart.

I and anybody else in this world are incapable of moving forward as long as we make ourselves masters of looking in the past.

Sure, I have made wrong choices and I have not performed at my very best every single time I have been faced with a situation or a challenge, however, if God thought enough of me to give me another chance to do things differently, who the hell am I to say....ACCESS DENIED.....how foolish????!!!!???

I challenge all of you that come by and take a peek at this post today....cause everything happens for a reason.....to try to let go of at least one of those neatly packaged yesterdays....today! Drop it and leave it to die. Don't feed it, don't send it a care package, don't ask anyone to watch over it....just leave it and let it writhe like a blister in the sun.......


Love you all!

Hugs...

Connection with my cards.....

Hey All,

So, some of you may have seen me discussing my readings before and some of you may not have but I do intuitive readings every other Tuesday at a local pub here and I have expanded my offering to card readings as well.

I invested in a brand new deck after much deliberation and I found the PERFECT one. I have to say that it is a great guide for my intuitive process because I have something to go off of, even when the person sitting across from me is giving me total blankness.

Because I do my readings in a pub, the atmosphere is not the best one and definately not dukan friendly for me because I always want to follow suit with having a good time too.....carbs.....anyhoooooo, I am excited to use them for the first time at my reading coming up on this Tuesday.

I realized that on my morning meditation walk....(that has become tied in too....exercise = meditation) that I have been subjected to living a "Crumb-based Lifestyle" all these years!!!!!!

Think about it, all of the the things that are not Dukan or Whole Food w.o.e. generate crumbs....breads, cakes, cookies, snacks, chips, etc.

I am a Regal queen and if anything falls from my plate or my "life plate" it should be falling in pieces...not in crumbs.....how peasant like, crumbs....shudder the thought.....lol. So, I am approaching this from a viewpoint that works for me. Call it silly or frivilous or willy-nilly, but I believe from reading other posts and bloggers that real weight and lifestyle changes come when you make a connection to something that makes sense, even if it doesn't drive you....it needs to make sense to you on a personal level.......

I know it feels like I have crossed deserts and rivers and mountains to find that the answer for how to get myself on my path has been in my own backyard all along.

Spiritual thoughts and worlds and ideals make sense to me and on that level I know I am Regal....I will conduct myself accordingly.....

Another aspect of all of this "revelation" if you will is that it really lifts alot of earth attached responsibility off of my shoulders and allows me to place them in the hands of God and allow my spirits to work on my behalf to guide me where I need to be. As long as I maintain my order. Order is huge thing in the spirit world. There are schedules, none of this "because I don't want to" mentality. I mean think about it....can you imagine God deciding one day "I don't wanna".......AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKAAAGHGGHGHGHGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't even want to think about it. So, if I stay in order, I can beat this thing. I can let go of these anchors and I can feel like I feel every other Tuesday, every single day of my life. Be patient with me ya'll.....sometimes the most obvious things are the hardest things to comprehend.  (What do you mean that's my nose on my face!!!!????!!!!) But, I'm getting it.

Hugs..........

7 Whole Days...

I apparently am only posting every 7 days or so.....

Things I have done in the past 7 days:

1. Went walking in the heat, yes! Can you believe it? Poor lil choclate based Shaye did not melt in the heat...

2. Cooked Cuban Mojo Pork Chops....they were not as good as I had hoped for but the family enjoyed them.

3. Spent 400 bucks at the grocery store....this was the entire month's budget plus a little bit, now it is time to get creative.

4. Had a spiritual breakthrough which has taken me to a place where I am attempting to face some of my "carry-on baggage" and make an attempt at smiling through at least half of my day....tee hee

5. Washed my hair....ugh. It is really nappy right now too..

6. Not stuck to Dukan. (Surprising? I think not.)

I feel better when I eat better and I was reading Constance's blog yesterday, I need to link to it...but she was talking about partner sabatoge....my biggest sabatoge is my evil self talk. Once the voices quiet down or at least untie my little sane person I will be back in a place where I can focus and stay motivated. The will is there, the will not is just taking center stage.

Hope all is well with everyone. I love ya all....keep sending your hugs...I'm getting there

Hugs.....

No Title Day

Hey People!!!

Today is a no title day. I am about to hop on the phone with some clients but thought that I would say hello and give you an update that I have been getting the proper amount of rest, which is important! I have also been sticking to "operation lifestyle overhaul". Tee Hee.

I'm in good spirits today and feeling right with the world. Looking forward to taking some time off soon and wanting to stay focused on getting my "issues" together.

Water is the word of the day. I'm drinking it all.....so hurry up and fill up your glass before you end up with none!

Hugs!

Gone But NOT forgotten....

That would be me....

I have been gone with no really good reason but I have not forgotten about any of you lovely ladies....and gents out there.

A bittersweet applaud to my 325 weigh in today. I have successfully managed to be totally off course but have maintained my weight during my wait to get back on track...(gotta love that play on words) anyhoo....I have readings tonight so I will be using some restraint while in that atmosphere, that is my bi-weekly downfall period and I need to get over that hump to be able to stay on course.

I have been reading a book called The Four Agreements it has been something that I realize I am going to have to work on for the rest of my life in order to get myself in a healthy state of mind.

I have released alot of my personal demons in this process of trying to shift and change just my physical body and the truth of the matter is that they scared my right back into myself. I was not in a mental place of enough self control to confront them properly.

My mind is probably a great deal more important to deal with than my body, however, they kind of work hand in hand at this point because in order to change my mind about me I have to also change the way I feel about the person I am, inside and out.

The dukan way of eating is easy and more natural than any other eating I have ever done in the past and I always feel and look (skin) better when I follow plan. I have to get rid of the idea this is a plan though and make it what my life is about.

I walked into this thing treating it like every other diet I have ever been on and it came to a screeching halt just like every other diet I have ever been on.

Difference here? Enough of the "lifestyle" has rubbed off on me that this time I have NOT ballooned back up and above what I started at. I have kept the weight that I worked at getting off, off. Yay Me!

So, now to change my compass back to the path of fulfillment....I'm still here...don't count me out yet.

Hugs!!!!