Holding ON!

Hey All,

I am happy to report that I have been successfully back on track for about 4 days now, which is a good umpteeeeenth start for me. Yippee!

I have been eating clean and not falling into the trap of sneaking in carbs. I am working on weaving some movement back in as well. I'm excited about this week as I am finally getting paid again and hopefully I can get some yummy food items that will make me feel like a well eating queen again.

I may even threaten to make some seitan...haven't quite decided yet though. I have been working on my meditation lately and that has been very helpful as well in keeping my mind on the right track. I'm super excited about each day right now. I'm holding on to that too.

Hope everyone is keeping on track and feeling good about their choices....sending out great vibes to all.


Hugs!!!

Friday....

Hey All,

So, it is Friday, yet again. Yay!

Thank you for all of the wonderful suggestions for how to get groceries without taking out a second mortgage.

I am getting is straightened out. I have realized that I really need another way to contact someone to be supportive and vice versa other than just the blog.

I enjoy blogging when I am doing well, but I get kind of recluse when I'm NOT doing well and having someone to text or chit chat with on the phone would be much more beneficial to me. That way there is none of that "dropping off the face of the earth" behavior because I can ignore my email 24/7 but I have my phone on me like it is an appendage.

NOW, don't get me wrong, I'm not the best at answering and replying because I never have my ringer on. However, I am much more accountable to my phone than I am to logging in to the computer without heading straight for facebok to play games and not writing on my blog.

These are just real observations of my overly human life people.....tsk tsk me if you must but my brain is just wired in a way where I can turn this blog off in my head for a series of days and then I end up feeling ashamed to come back especially reporting that my weight hasn't budged or it has gone up. Very self defeating...

I'm a pretty good conversationalist and as long as it isn't an international call, I can make it....I have verizon so even better if you do too....Let me have it people!!! Who needs a text or chat bud? Don't jump all at once...lol.

Seriously though, I'm available. Never know, might make a friend too!

Hugs!!!!

Okay, so.....

Hey All!

So, I have pretty much stopped blogging because I haven't had a doggone thing to report as I have been pretty much off task.

HOWEVER! Today is a new beginning, it is the first day of school for my little miss....she is officially a 3rd grader and I am so very proud of her!!!!

This also marks the first year that I turn to prostitution to fund her private school education. (Joking) However, things are tight like gnat booty financially because of the adjustments that need to be made to make sure she is in the type of learning environment she needs to be in to be the best that she can be. I am willing, able, ready and excited.

So this leads to how to get back on track with Dukan on a budget. I am on a journey to figure out how to do this on a tight budget. Since we have been trying to wrangle this money together to the tune of 420 a month (that is already reduced by 200 worth of scholarships) I have been eating rice and pasta and soups to stretch things out. I haven't turned to beans yet, so I am pulling up the reigns and thinking of how to get what I need from things like, I don't know...ummmm....canned tuna or salmon, hot dogs, turkey bacon, chicken. I know some of this is alot higher in fat than I need but I need to get somewhere near the plan.

Any thoughts or suggestions???? I can't go grocery shopping again until after the 1st of the month when I get my paycheck (only once a month.....ugh) but I am still committed to trying. I am labeling myself the comeback kid because I will comeback and I will succeed!!!!

Today's menu:

B: 2 Boiled Eggs

S: Yogurt (NonFat)

L: 2 cans of Tinned Tuna

S: Coffee

D: 2 Chicken Breasts

We will see how it goes....

P.S. Moonday......thank you for checking in on me, that particular weekend you asked about..well, I actually did very well. I heart that you checked on me.

Hugs to you All!!!!!

Starting Over AAAAHHHHHHGain.... :0)

Hello Everyone!

So, I am starting over again today. Fresh and new. I recieved a response to an email that I sent out as a cry for help and it is working on my brain stem right now.

I am also going to lay off the booze and cigs. That seems to be the biggest trap for me in regard to my "sticking to the plan" getting thwarted. So, no more cocktails....going for sugar-free mocktails now...and wouldn't you know...Crystal Light actually has some.

Additionally......another big bite off the "Set Shaye Free" apple.....I am putting the cigarettes down. I have really been thinking alot within the past few months about leaving them alone. I don't even enjoy them anymore, I just keep DOING it. Purely habit driven.

So there it is.....I am pretty much a person where I have to clamp down real tight to get the changes made and I have been living like I don't know that about myself. Some people can do one at a time and feel great not letting go all at once. However, I have to do a clear cut of it all to get on task. I'm here.

Thank you all for your continued support of my blog and I hope to be posting good news here regarding these changes and if not....love me anyway!

Hugs!

Starting Again.....dejavu????

Hey All,

So, I have decided I'm just going to keep starting again and again and again until I get this thing right. My thought for today is a car with a full tank of gas. That is where I am right now. My tank is on FULL!!!! Which means that I should work on the maintenance of my "vehicle" and work on using gas and pimping my ride!!! :0)

I am having some yogurt for breakfast and I will probably have some tuna for lunch....Dinner is up in the air right now but I'm thinking chicken. We will see though. I am going to focus on keeping fluids moving through my system today and that is all I am pledging.

I hope that everyone has been doing well.

For anyone that actually reads this blog, I hope that I am demonstrating (although I wish I wasn't) that weight loss and changing a hard coded lifestyle isn't always as easy as 1-2-3. Sometimes A-B-C's get mixed up in there but I will not give up on me. I won't let me get me. I'm going to keep pushing forward and make these changes.

Hugs!!!!

Best Load Bearing Exercise Ever...It will exhaust you though....

Hello People!!!!

So, I have discovered the best load bearing activity ever...guaranteed to take the wind out of you and knock the socks off your feet! It will leave you with your head hung and your back against the wall EVERY SINGLE TIME YOU DO IT!!!!

What is it you say?

Carrying yesterdays......that's right! You too can carry yesterdays.....the fine print? You can't train for walking with tomorrow and enjoying today at the same time. Not responsible for the guilt, shame and depression that come standard with the carrying of yesterdays. No refunds.

This is my task for today. To drop the yesterdays...I have quite a few of them that I neatly tuck inside a little red suitcase that fits neatly in my chest....its called my heart.

I and anybody else in this world are incapable of moving forward as long as we make ourselves masters of looking in the past.

Sure, I have made wrong choices and I have not performed at my very best every single time I have been faced with a situation or a challenge, however, if God thought enough of me to give me another chance to do things differently, who the hell am I to say....ACCESS DENIED.....how foolish????!!!!???

I challenge all of you that come by and take a peek at this post today....cause everything happens for a reason.....to try to let go of at least one of those neatly packaged yesterdays....today! Drop it and leave it to die. Don't feed it, don't send it a care package, don't ask anyone to watch over it....just leave it and let it writhe like a blister in the sun.......


Love you all!

Hugs...

Connection with my cards.....

Hey All,

So, some of you may have seen me discussing my readings before and some of you may not have but I do intuitive readings every other Tuesday at a local pub here and I have expanded my offering to card readings as well.

I invested in a brand new deck after much deliberation and I found the PERFECT one. I have to say that it is a great guide for my intuitive process because I have something to go off of, even when the person sitting across from me is giving me total blankness.

Because I do my readings in a pub, the atmosphere is not the best one and definately not dukan friendly for me because I always want to follow suit with having a good time too.....carbs.....anyhoooooo, I am excited to use them for the first time at my reading coming up on this Tuesday.

I realized that on my morning meditation walk....(that has become tied in too....exercise = meditation) that I have been subjected to living a "Crumb-based Lifestyle" all these years!!!!!!

Think about it, all of the the things that are not Dukan or Whole Food w.o.e. generate crumbs....breads, cakes, cookies, snacks, chips, etc.

I am a Regal queen and if anything falls from my plate or my "life plate" it should be falling in pieces...not in crumbs.....how peasant like, crumbs....shudder the thought.....lol. So, I am approaching this from a viewpoint that works for me. Call it silly or frivilous or willy-nilly, but I believe from reading other posts and bloggers that real weight and lifestyle changes come when you make a connection to something that makes sense, even if it doesn't drive you....it needs to make sense to you on a personal level.......

I know it feels like I have crossed deserts and rivers and mountains to find that the answer for how to get myself on my path has been in my own backyard all along.

Spiritual thoughts and worlds and ideals make sense to me and on that level I know I am Regal....I will conduct myself accordingly.....

Another aspect of all of this "revelation" if you will is that it really lifts alot of earth attached responsibility off of my shoulders and allows me to place them in the hands of God and allow my spirits to work on my behalf to guide me where I need to be. As long as I maintain my order. Order is huge thing in the spirit world. There are schedules, none of this "because I don't want to" mentality. I mean think about it....can you imagine God deciding one day "I don't wanna".......AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKAAAGHGGHGHGHGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't even want to think about it. So, if I stay in order, I can beat this thing. I can let go of these anchors and I can feel like I feel every other Tuesday, every single day of my life. Be patient with me ya'll.....sometimes the most obvious things are the hardest things to comprehend.  (What do you mean that's my nose on my face!!!!????!!!!) But, I'm getting it.

Hugs..........