So.....the office ordered pizza from my most favorite pizza place in Charleston, SC!!!!! Arrrggghhghhdhgahdfhlasdnhfpai h'wef'pids[djfashidflk'msd<> mfsjkcbhvio sn'vcmksd;kfj!!!!!!
I'm not stressed. lol.
I just thought it would be a good idea to blog about it.
I have a co-worker who is supportive of my endeavors and said to me. When people "mess up" often times we ask them "What made you think that was a good idea", when in reality the question should be "What made you think that was not a bad idea"
Once you allow the gate to open with, "Well maybe just this once" is when the flood gates of hell open wide and swallow you inside....lollolololololololol....Haaaaaa (ok, crazy cackling witch moment is over)
I am stronger than pizza. They will only be making it with even more pizza pizzayness when I get to goal weight and besides that I know how to make it Dukan style. Can't whip it up here at work, but I can if I have to have it.
Pizza wasn't even on my mind today, so how can I pine away for something I didn't even want in the first place. It's a trap and I have seen it an supassed it!
Score?
Me: 1
Crap Food: 0
Hugs....
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
A week of good behavior????
Um, yes....that would be me behaving well. I'm being such a good girl...
I have been sticking to plan and making it a part of my life. I think I have been having an issue in the past with feeling like I should have sides of this or that and not just one component to my meals and losing sight of the fact that food is fuel...it's been like a vacation for me most of my life. So forgive me for my delay in mind change regarding how I view the (FOOD).
:0)
I am changing my mind around about a lot of things lately, changing the diet or rather what I am eating is not good enough...It is going to do me zero justice to force myself to stick to a particular way of eating or exercising and fight myself on it the entire way and then wonder later why the weight is creeping back on. I have to completely CHANGE MY MIND ABOUT LIFE.
I can't continue to view food and alcohol as medication or luxury or reward or punishment. It has to be viewed as fuel, well the food anyway. The alcohol is a complete other issue. It really isn't an issue at all besides the fact that sometimes I feel as though my winning personality isn't enough on its own and for that I forgive myself, because truth be told, I'm some of the best company I know.
I have alot of photos to go through and alot of journals and poems to re-read. I have alot of photos to take and a lot of journals to begin. I am traveling in self - discovery and I am choosing to rule my existence instead of wondering what the next meal is going to bring.
Planning out every detail works of some people. I have tried to brainwash myself into it, but sometimes one size does not fit all and if I expect to get out of the size that does not fit me, I have to change my mind.
It's changing....Hope all of you are doing well and feeling confident and focused and powerful and useful in this vast universe....My hugs are out there for each and every one of you....BE WELL.
Hugs....
I have been sticking to plan and making it a part of my life. I think I have been having an issue in the past with feeling like I should have sides of this or that and not just one component to my meals and losing sight of the fact that food is fuel...it's been like a vacation for me most of my life. So forgive me for my delay in mind change regarding how I view the (FOOD).
:0)
I am changing my mind around about a lot of things lately, changing the diet or rather what I am eating is not good enough...It is going to do me zero justice to force myself to stick to a particular way of eating or exercising and fight myself on it the entire way and then wonder later why the weight is creeping back on. I have to completely CHANGE MY MIND ABOUT LIFE.
I can't continue to view food and alcohol as medication or luxury or reward or punishment. It has to be viewed as fuel, well the food anyway. The alcohol is a complete other issue. It really isn't an issue at all besides the fact that sometimes I feel as though my winning personality isn't enough on its own and for that I forgive myself, because truth be told, I'm some of the best company I know.
I have alot of photos to go through and alot of journals and poems to re-read. I have alot of photos to take and a lot of journals to begin. I am traveling in self - discovery and I am choosing to rule my existence instead of wondering what the next meal is going to bring.
Planning out every detail works of some people. I have tried to brainwash myself into it, but sometimes one size does not fit all and if I expect to get out of the size that does not fit me, I have to change my mind.
It's changing....Hope all of you are doing well and feeling confident and focused and powerful and useful in this vast universe....My hugs are out there for each and every one of you....BE WELL.
Hugs....
Monday, August 27, 2012
Holding ON!
Hey All,
I am happy to report that I have been successfully back on track for about 4 days now, which is a good umpteeeeenth start for me. Yippee!
I have been eating clean and not falling into the trap of sneaking in carbs. I am working on weaving some movement back in as well. I'm excited about this week as I am finally getting paid again and hopefully I can get some yummy food items that will make me feel like a well eating queen again.
I may even threaten to make some seitan...haven't quite decided yet though. I have been working on my meditation lately and that has been very helpful as well in keeping my mind on the right track. I'm super excited about each day right now. I'm holding on to that too.
Hope everyone is keeping on track and feeling good about their choices....sending out great vibes to all.
Hugs!!!
I am happy to report that I have been successfully back on track for about 4 days now, which is a good umpteeeeenth start for me. Yippee!
I have been eating clean and not falling into the trap of sneaking in carbs. I am working on weaving some movement back in as well. I'm excited about this week as I am finally getting paid again and hopefully I can get some yummy food items that will make me feel like a well eating queen again.
I may even threaten to make some seitan...haven't quite decided yet though. I have been working on my meditation lately and that has been very helpful as well in keeping my mind on the right track. I'm super excited about each day right now. I'm holding on to that too.
Hope everyone is keeping on track and feeling good about their choices....sending out great vibes to all.
Hugs!!!
Friday, August 24, 2012
Friday....
Hey All,
So, it is Friday, yet again. Yay!
Thank you for all of the wonderful suggestions for how to get groceries without taking out a second mortgage.
I am getting is straightened out. I have realized that I really need another way to contact someone to be supportive and vice versa other than just the blog.
I enjoy blogging when I am doing well, but I get kind of recluse when I'm NOT doing well and having someone to text or chit chat with on the phone would be much more beneficial to me. That way there is none of that "dropping off the face of the earth" behavior because I can ignore my email 24/7 but I have my phone on me like it is an appendage.
NOW, don't get me wrong, I'm not the best at answering and replying because I never have my ringer on. However, I am much more accountable to my phone than I am to logging in to the computer without heading straight for facebok to play games and not writing on my blog.
These are just real observations of my overly human life people.....tsk tsk me if you must but my brain is just wired in a way where I can turn this blog off in my head for a series of days and then I end up feeling ashamed to come back especially reporting that my weight hasn't budged or it has gone up. Very self defeating...
I'm a pretty good conversationalist and as long as it isn't an international call, I can make it....I have verizon so even better if you do too....Let me have it people!!! Who needs a text or chat bud? Don't jump all at once...lol.
Seriously though, I'm available. Never know, might make a friend too!
Hugs!!!!
So, it is Friday, yet again. Yay!
Thank you for all of the wonderful suggestions for how to get groceries without taking out a second mortgage.
I am getting is straightened out. I have realized that I really need another way to contact someone to be supportive and vice versa other than just the blog.
I enjoy blogging when I am doing well, but I get kind of recluse when I'm NOT doing well and having someone to text or chit chat with on the phone would be much more beneficial to me. That way there is none of that "dropping off the face of the earth" behavior because I can ignore my email 24/7 but I have my phone on me like it is an appendage.
NOW, don't get me wrong, I'm not the best at answering and replying because I never have my ringer on. However, I am much more accountable to my phone than I am to logging in to the computer without heading straight for facebok to play games and not writing on my blog.
These are just real observations of my overly human life people.....tsk tsk me if you must but my brain is just wired in a way where I can turn this blog off in my head for a series of days and then I end up feeling ashamed to come back especially reporting that my weight hasn't budged or it has gone up. Very self defeating...
I'm a pretty good conversationalist and as long as it isn't an international call, I can make it....I have verizon so even better if you do too....Let me have it people!!! Who needs a text or chat bud? Don't jump all at once...lol.
Seriously though, I'm available. Never know, might make a friend too!
Hugs!!!!
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Okay, so.....
Hey All!
So, I have pretty much stopped blogging because I haven't had a doggone thing to report as I have been pretty much off task.
HOWEVER! Today is a new beginning, it is the first day of school for my little miss....she is officially a 3rd grader and I am so very proud of her!!!!
This also marks the first year that I turn to prostitution to fund her private school education. (Joking) However, things are tight like gnat booty financially because of the adjustments that need to be made to make sure she is in the type of learning environment she needs to be in to be the best that she can be. I am willing, able, ready and excited.
So this leads to how to get back on track with Dukan on a budget. I am on a journey to figure out how to do this on a tight budget. Since we have been trying to wrangle this money together to the tune of 420 a month (that is already reduced by 200 worth of scholarships) I have been eating rice and pasta and soups to stretch things out. I haven't turned to beans yet, so I am pulling up the reigns and thinking of how to get what I need from things like, I don't know...ummmm....canned tuna or salmon, hot dogs, turkey bacon, chicken. I know some of this is alot higher in fat than I need but I need to get somewhere near the plan.
Any thoughts or suggestions???? I can't go grocery shopping again until after the 1st of the month when I get my paycheck (only once a month.....ugh) but I am still committed to trying. I am labeling myself the comeback kid because I will comeback and I will succeed!!!!
Today's menu:
B: 2 Boiled Eggs
S: Yogurt (NonFat)
L: 2 cans of Tinned Tuna
S: Coffee
D: 2 Chicken Breasts
We will see how it goes....
P.S. Moonday......thank you for checking in on me, that particular weekend you asked about..well, I actually did very well. I heart that you checked on me.
Hugs to you All!!!!!
So, I have pretty much stopped blogging because I haven't had a doggone thing to report as I have been pretty much off task.
HOWEVER! Today is a new beginning, it is the first day of school for my little miss....she is officially a 3rd grader and I am so very proud of her!!!!
This also marks the first year that I turn to prostitution to fund her private school education. (Joking) However, things are tight like gnat booty financially because of the adjustments that need to be made to make sure she is in the type of learning environment she needs to be in to be the best that she can be. I am willing, able, ready and excited.
So this leads to how to get back on track with Dukan on a budget. I am on a journey to figure out how to do this on a tight budget. Since we have been trying to wrangle this money together to the tune of 420 a month (that is already reduced by 200 worth of scholarships) I have been eating rice and pasta and soups to stretch things out. I haven't turned to beans yet, so I am pulling up the reigns and thinking of how to get what I need from things like, I don't know...ummmm....canned tuna or salmon, hot dogs, turkey bacon, chicken. I know some of this is alot higher in fat than I need but I need to get somewhere near the plan.
Any thoughts or suggestions???? I can't go grocery shopping again until after the 1st of the month when I get my paycheck (only once a month.....ugh) but I am still committed to trying. I am labeling myself the comeback kid because I will comeback and I will succeed!!!!
Today's menu:
B: 2 Boiled Eggs
S: Yogurt (NonFat)
L: 2 cans of Tinned Tuna
S: Coffee
D: 2 Chicken Breasts
We will see how it goes....
P.S. Moonday......thank you for checking in on me, that particular weekend you asked about..well, I actually did very well. I heart that you checked on me.
Hugs to you All!!!!!
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Starting Over AAAAHHHHHHGain.... :0)
Hello Everyone!
So, I am starting over again today. Fresh and new. I recieved a response to an email that I sent out as a cry for help and it is working on my brain stem right now.
I am also going to lay off the booze and cigs. That seems to be the biggest trap for me in regard to my "sticking to the plan" getting thwarted. So, no more cocktails....going for sugar-free mocktails now...and wouldn't you know...Crystal Light actually has some.
Additionally......another big bite off the "Set Shaye Free" apple.....I am putting the cigarettes down. I have really been thinking alot within the past few months about leaving them alone. I don't even enjoy them anymore, I just keep DOING it. Purely habit driven.
So there it is.....I am pretty much a person where I have to clamp down real tight to get the changes made and I have been living like I don't know that about myself. Some people can do one at a time and feel great not letting go all at once. However, I have to do a clear cut of it all to get on task. I'm here.
Thank you all for your continued support of my blog and I hope to be posting good news here regarding these changes and if not....love me anyway!
Hugs!
So, I am starting over again today. Fresh and new. I recieved a response to an email that I sent out as a cry for help and it is working on my brain stem right now.
I am also going to lay off the booze and cigs. That seems to be the biggest trap for me in regard to my "sticking to the plan" getting thwarted. So, no more cocktails....going for sugar-free mocktails now...and wouldn't you know...Crystal Light actually has some.
Additionally......another big bite off the "Set Shaye Free" apple.....I am putting the cigarettes down. I have really been thinking alot within the past few months about leaving them alone. I don't even enjoy them anymore, I just keep DOING it. Purely habit driven.
So there it is.....I am pretty much a person where I have to clamp down real tight to get the changes made and I have been living like I don't know that about myself. Some people can do one at a time and feel great not letting go all at once. However, I have to do a clear cut of it all to get on task. I'm here.
Thank you all for your continued support of my blog and I hope to be posting good news here regarding these changes and if not....love me anyway!
Hugs!
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Starting Again.....dejavu????
Hey All,
So, I have decided I'm just going to keep starting again and again and again until I get this thing right. My thought for today is a car with a full tank of gas. That is where I am right now. My tank is on FULL!!!! Which means that I should work on the maintenance of my "vehicle" and work on using gas and pimping my ride!!! :0)
I am having some yogurt for breakfast and I will probably have some tuna for lunch....Dinner is up in the air right now but I'm thinking chicken. We will see though. I am going to focus on keeping fluids moving through my system today and that is all I am pledging.
I hope that everyone has been doing well.
For anyone that actually reads this blog, I hope that I am demonstrating (although I wish I wasn't) that weight loss and changing a hard coded lifestyle isn't always as easy as 1-2-3. Sometimes A-B-C's get mixed up in there but I will not give up on me. I won't let me get me. I'm going to keep pushing forward and make these changes.
Hugs!!!!
So, I have decided I'm just going to keep starting again and again and again until I get this thing right. My thought for today is a car with a full tank of gas. That is where I am right now. My tank is on FULL!!!! Which means that I should work on the maintenance of my "vehicle" and work on using gas and pimping my ride!!! :0)
I am having some yogurt for breakfast and I will probably have some tuna for lunch....Dinner is up in the air right now but I'm thinking chicken. We will see though. I am going to focus on keeping fluids moving through my system today and that is all I am pledging.
I hope that everyone has been doing well.
For anyone that actually reads this blog, I hope that I am demonstrating (although I wish I wasn't) that weight loss and changing a hard coded lifestyle isn't always as easy as 1-2-3. Sometimes A-B-C's get mixed up in there but I will not give up on me. I won't let me get me. I'm going to keep pushing forward and make these changes.
Hugs!!!!
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