Sore ALL OVER!!!

Hey hey hey hey!!!

It's your old pal Krusty.... j/k...its just me.

I am on my fifth straight day of walking and I am SO SORE ALL OVER! I feel like even my eyelids are sore. (tragic)

I am being honest with myself and realize I am in a phase where I can not take one day off because I will just stop doing everything. I have to stay in motion. So, I don't see a day off coming for at least the next month.

I started out doing a 30 minute mile and I have knocked that down to a 20 minute mile already. I know that isn't super fast for all but it is super fast for me. I am making it out of the house at about 5:45 am. I need to get that time to 5:00am to give myself the right amount of time if I decide to go a little further than the mile. Baby steps.

Another win this week is that I was able to put on a 2x outfit. I can't recall the last time I was able to do this and not look like someone was trying to put a bag over my head and kidnap me. So, YAY!

Best wishes....Hugs and Love to All! -S.

Crossed My Legs Under the Desk

Hello All!!!

My victory for today is that I crossed my legs under my desk at work. How cool is that? Pretty cool is the answer....lol.

I additionally ran across an old college mate's blogspot and ya'll should check it out. I'm inspired by her story and it is ongoing which is cool too. You can see it at itsyahztime.blogspot.com

Either way. I looked into a trip to Europe for next year when school let's out for Cade. She is very in love with the European Culture and wants to visit London. I want to make that happen for her. It would be nice for me too (secret yay).

Still haven't felt the urge to move...did not go on the walk I threatened to go on the other day either. However, I have been eating better. I did succumb to a homemade grilled cheese last night and haven't gone without my cocktail yet.  The water has been increased so I am NOT complaining.

I do want to start going to the gym when I wake up in the middle of the night and can't go back to sleep. I will let ya'll know how that goes. Laying out my gym clothes will make it easier to grab and go...maybe I will try that.

Nothing else significant to report today...

Be well and know I'm sending hugs and love to all. -S.

Day 1 of Project Me

Hello (hello, hello, hello, hello) is anyone out there (there, there, there, there),

So, I know it has been better than a year since I have even come to look at this blog. This is an ongoing trend in my life...starting and then, well, you get the picture.

I'm starting again. This time I'm a little older and more mature. I'm calling this new beginning "Project Me".

This is day one.

Got up, packed Cade's lunch, packed my lunch (chicken salad), made some tea and smoked a cig. I made it to work on time and started a generally productive day.

My plans for the evening:

Take a short walk around the neighborhood
Have Dinner (mushroom chicken with broccoli)
Write down my feelings
Talk positively about a friend on FB as my status
Have a night cap
Lay my clothes out for tomorrow
Go to bed by 11pm

Until then....hugs and love -S.

Disgusted and Fed Up

So, if nothing else this blog will serve to show how many failed attempts a person can make at getting "wherever" they are trying to go.

I am angry, tired, and disgusted. There is nothing anyone else can do about how I am feeling but me. I am in a "hell no, we won't go" state of mind today. I don't see it changing for a while either. 

I am not apologetic and I am damn sure not attempting to be uplifting in any sort of way. I am not blaming anyone or asking for any sympathy or understanding or consolation or tough talk or ANYTHING!

I finally get happy with me (complacent) and now its too late. Day late and a dollar short because now I really DO NOT HAVE A CHOICE and I am burning fire ants mad about it. 

F this and F that and F, F, F, F, F.

The ONLY reason I went for a walk this morning was out of pure anger. I have no drive or determination or cute outfit I want to wear one day in the unpromised future.....I'm just pissed the F off. 

That's all I have to say. 

w: 322

bs: 232

bp: 165/91

Mood: Psychotically Angry

Breakfast: Egg Cups (2) (egg whites, sun dried tomatoes, turkey sausage, cheddar cheese, mushrooms, green peppers, and red onions)

Lunch: Tossed salad with 1/4 cup of turkey, 1 egg, 1/2 cup tomatoes, 2 cups iceburg lettuce, 2 tbs ranch

Dinner: 6 oz. pork

64 oz water

319.9

Hey out there!!!!

Okay, we have established that I am a slack poster....don't judge me.

I am officially 319.9, I just made it into the 300 teen's but damn it, I'm there.

Wanted to share that quickie. I will post later. I'm not giving up! Hugs to you all! -S.

11/18/13 - Morning

Hey there!

So, I have been battling a chest cold that keeps moving between my head and chest. I stopped walking about 7 or 8 days ago on a daily basis because I just couldn't get my body to do more in the sicky phase. This is my third week with this but it seems to be letting up some. I did go for an hour and a half - two hour walk on Sunday with my daughter through the woods. It was so peaceful and we took some awesome "selfies". I will be doing that on a regular basis as it was very calming and I also walked on uneven terrain so it was challenging too!

I am learning to enjoy movement over trying to lose weight. My body is changing for the better. Things are tightening up. I'm not starving all the time and I am paying attention to keeping myself hydrated so that rocks too! I'm still here and still going strong.

I signed up for a 30 Burpees/30 days challenge. I'm spreading the burpees throughout the day though. May be going to a yoga class tonight. Its a yoga/pilates mix.....pray for my inflexible muscles....lol. Hugs to me and you all!!!! -S.

11/04/13 - Morning

Hello!

I hope that everyone has been doing well. I have been working my booty off (literally) and have yet to give up or give in!!!!

I am not following Dukan exclusively but rather pulling on years of dieting experience and doing what I know will work for me as a lifestyle change. So, 90% Dukan and 10% my ideas!!!

I am logging in today with a weight of 326.5. Which is a great deal down from where I started a couple of weeks back (again). I am really happy with my progress and my energy levels are increasing. I am still getting up for my 5 or 5:30am walks and I have joined a gym as well. I went for my first day yesterday and it was really needed. Zen.

Anyhoo. Keep your head in the game and remember you aren't the only one! Stay strong cause I will. Hugs to me and you!!!! -S.