Friday, May 4, 2012

Verdict: 326.5

Hello!

Verdict: 326.5

So, I'm down a few ounces but not an entire pound. Not sure what I did wrong yesterday as everything I ate was bland as all get out.

I will focus on drinking more water today so that I can be sure to flush out the fat and toxins that are trying to get out.

I don't really have much to chit chat about today unfortunately. It doesn't really matter I suppose. I finally made it to page 113 of the DD book. Reading all that stuff right now it rather intimidating. I am not far enough removed from ho-ho's and cheesesteak to appreciate what a new lifestyle of eating will mean quite yet to receive it the right way yet.

I saw a pic of gangrene toes today from out of control diabetes....that will surely put a cramp in your pedicure game. I have to make sure I keep my circulation up and functioning. Wow.

Anyway, things are going along well. A gigantic flying roach tried to attack me last night. There are so many critters in SC. They call them "palmetto bugs".....they are, in short, gigantic flying cockroaches. A roach is a roach is a roach. Ahem.

So, that is all for right now I guess. Not much to report. Slow day, praise the LORD for that. I like peace.

Hugs.....

Thursday, May 3, 2012

I am feeling like a failure.

Okay, I'm writing again for the morning because some new emotions just came up. I wanna get this stuff out and write it down for when other people need it and also to cleanse myself and not stuff my emotions down anymore.

I am feeling like a failure.

I am pissed off that I can hardly afford to eat well and to put my daughter in a school where she can truly excel and these poor self image children aren't taking the twinkle out of her star.

I'm not a failure though. I am a single mother and I'm doing the best I can. God will provide the rest.

Hugs....

Stalemate

MORNING ALL!!!!!

So, it finally happened......

Verdict: 327.3

Stalemate for the day.

Yesterday went pretty well IMO. Apparently it did not go so well.

Things I did yesterday that I haven't done up until yesterday.....

1. Ate Turkey Bites (turkey jerky)
2. Ate Beef Jerky (Jalapeno Flavored)
3. Drank Propel Fitness Water (Zero Cals)
4. Waited til 11 before I had my yogurt crumble
5. Ate pieces of chicken around 11pm
6. Had Steak-Umm meat cooked in 2 tablespoons of canola oil

Not a coincidence that those items amount up to six. I even feel like my lips are plumped and puffy from salt.....what a stupid move.....Nothing on that list is actually "illegal", but the sodium content could knock your socks off......

I managed this behavior on the day I actually went and picked up the book and the last thing I read last night was about the salt in stuff.....I did buy some Mrs. Dash from the store yesterday, so I will use that today instead and try to do better.

On a lighter note, because I am definately not lighter today....

I found a school for Cade!!!! It's a private school. I took Cade to see it after school and she looked like she would like it. So, now to sell that kidney I have been hanging on to.....where did I put that number for booth rental at the black market???? But seriously, it's expensive. Since they are charging and arm and a leg, I wonder if I would get extra money for the extra meat on mine or would that drive the price down.....guess it would all come down to if the cannibal that you are selling to is watching his weight or not.....I digress.

Sorry, sometimes I have random trailing thoughts.

On the real though, I have the nerve to be disappointed today by my lack of loss and I haven't even been exercising!

Today, it begins...no more excuses. I will exercise. That's all for right now. I'm gonna go cry. (yes, I'm a punk.)

Hugs....

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Dukan Diet Scale/Plan

"If it had not been for the LORD on my side, tell me, where would I be? Where would I be??"

Good morning ya'll!

Verdict: 327.3

Okay so I'm down a bit more today and it feels really great!!!! It feels extra great because I wanted to drink soooooooooooooooooo badly yesterday. I don't know what came over me, but I'm telling you I could have taken a bottle of Ta KILL Ya straight to the head!!!!

I'm feeling glad that I didn't do it now. I don't want to slow my loss down at all and everyday I have been pleased with the results. It's gonna take a whole lot out of me to slow this progress down when I have to move into the cruise phase, but I don't want to get ill so I am going to follow the plan. Besides that I really want a big plate of okra......I love okra...its so tasty......all sauteed up in the pan.......yum okra!

Okay, back from my "okra fantasy" I will be on the attack phase for 2 more days after today.

This is my Dukan Diet Scale/Plan:


I just went and updated it so that I could put it on here today. That's why the dates are reflecting "If you started today 05/02/12". So at this point you and I both know I only have 2 days left on the attack phase including today makes it 3 days. So in your mind just kind of adjust the dates a little to see the course. I have lost appox 13 pounds on the attack phase with 2 days remaining after today. They estimated that it would be 6.89 pounds. So, I'm a little ahead of the curve which is always very nice. I have a bit more water tucked away than your average person I suppose.....lol.

This is my first day off. I'm gonna try to find the family fitness center so that I can get in their pool. I love swimming and need to get to a pool QUICK! That is my top pick for exercise.

I'm about ready to start exercising. I was supposed to be doing that everyday since Saturday but I really am so large that I just flat out didn't have the energy. That is a partial excuse but it's coming from a real place. I told myself that I was gonna try to be very honest in this blog and this is part of me being honest. I have no energy. But I can feel the energy growing inside of me simply by being less weighed down!!

Before the end of the week, I am going to write out a list of the reasons that I am doing this as a reminder when I am feeling like I was feeling yesterday. 3 days in and I wanted to quit by drinking. I know that it comes from being upset or frustrated and I'm so used to burying my problems at the bottom of a good karaoke song and a glass that I don't really deal with my problems anymore. I am trying to become a kinder and more gentle person and not let people's stuff get in the way of me knowing who I am and what I am all about. I am growing and changing and becoming and I will not let myself down this time and stay in this rut of not caring for myself the way I deserve to care for myself. I will be taking a picture again on Saturday to keep a log of picture progress if you will. I am not strong enough to post those yet. I will be soon though.

Hugs....

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Earth Fare!

I brought lunch and then I was asked to go to Earth Fare with a colleague and I said....YESSSS!

That store has more than a few awesome things. I could stay in there for hours...literally. Only thing is there are too many options for me to look at while I am on the attack phase.  I actually caved in and bought some curry chicken salad. NOW, BEFORE YOU GO CALLING ME A CHEAT, LET ME SAY THIS.....I only ate the chicken and threw out all the cashews, celery and raisins. The flavor was banging...there was a little canola oil which is a cheat, technically. However, it was OOOOOOOOOO-Mazin! I also got a rotisserie chicken because the blackened chicken breast that I was gonna get was like 8 bucks and the rotisserie was 8 bucks. So I went with the whole chicken vs. the chicken boob. That was a Beverly Hills Augmented Chicken boob obviously......hmph. There is no way in the world that I would pay that price in SC with whole chicken sitting right beside it......anyhoo....

I'm doing okay today. This is my last day of work before my vacation begins. I don't have any real major things going on besides getting Cade into another school and figuring out what to do about her summer camp situation.

Otherwise, just trying to do right and eat right and be right.....right?

Hugs....

Visualization

Good Morning All,

Alright so the verdict this morning is 330.1 lbs. I have pretty much lost 10 pounds since starting on 04/28/12. Today is 05/01/12. Not too shabby. I just think of all those people trying to lose the last ten pounds and that helps me to feel like it is a victory!!!! Woot Woot! To me, right now, the first ten pounds although it has flown off is the harder to deal with because you are still trying to imagine what you must look like being smaller.

I am trying to imagine it anyway. I got an empty picture frame and I have been working on visualization. I have been staring at the picture frame and trying to envision myself in the picture at my healthy weight. I know that is about 120 pounds away but right now, I am just happy to be sticking to something in order to take care of myself the way I should.

I still have quite a way to go but I just want to stay focused on today and not be worried about the next month and the fact that I have about 1082 days left before I will have locked in my true weight. I just want to think about feeling like I'm doing well.

Today is going to be a little difficult because I didn't plan well and there isn't much pre-prepared protien in the house and I have to be at work all day. I didn't think it through. I took some fish out so maybe I will make that up to take as lunch. I will be in a more prepared place next week prayerfully.

I will talk more either later today or tomorrow about how people keep putting up depressing music with their before and after pictures....what up with that? I'm looking for inspiration and you are making me want to jump off a bridge.

Hugs....

Monday, April 30, 2012

Attack!!!!!!!

So, I am at work and eating lunch right now. This is how my day has looked so far menu wise:

Breakfast: Key Lime Pie Yoplait Non-Fat Yogurt w/ 1.5 tablespoons of Wheat Germ

Snack: 1 piece of Tilapia

Lunch: Chicken Breast and 93% Lean Ground Sirloin patty

I have had about 4 giant glasses of water so far today as well. I'm feeling good. Took all my medicine this morning. BS: 186 W: 332.3 ( btw 186 BS is good for me....sad but true)

Anyhoo, I'm feeling pretty good. Still can't really believe 8 pounds of ww is gone from my body. I'm excited. Little worried about running out of meat right now, but I'm gonna try to stay ahead of the shopping list. Why is food so bleeping expensive. The dollar menu keeps people fat but it also keeps people from being homeless trying to feed their family..did I mention the rocket fuel prices??? I digress.

One more day of work, then I go on vacation for the remainder of the week. This will allow me to be able to make a nice finish to my attack phase.....I'm so happy! The universe is working with me right now, which is always nice.

I am writing from a computer right now, so I'm sure the difference is noticeable! I really do have an extended vocabulary and know how to use proper casing....lol......

So this is a quick glance at my weight loss so far ( water, but pounds gone and that's enough for me right now!)

Saturday 4/28/12: 340

Sunday 4/29/12 : 335.5

Monday 4/30/12 : 332.6

I'm pretty large, so my numbers are higher than your average body type person. I have diabetes and high blood pressure as well though, so I'm fighting against medication that likes to keep my body plumped up with fluids...oh yeah and the whole female gender thing. :0)

Alright, well, people are looking at me and I should probably keep eating my plate of meat. I will add more later on.

Hugs!

340

good morning. still posting from my phone. i will be brief. ok so my weight when i started on saturday was three forty. there it is out there for all to see. its now monday and i am at three thirty two. how about that. i cant wait to post from the computer. ugh. hugs to me and everyone else out there trying. blessings and love.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

day one and day two of the dukan dance

so this s it. nothing fancy or even proper cased for that matter. im starting this blog from my phone. i wont mention my starting weight yet but its alot. i am down five pounds since yesterday and still going strong. havent exercised yet but maybe tomorrow. i did eat bbq sauce today because i jacked up the chicken with too much salt. hopefully it wont shift the axis of the earth. i havent cheated otherwise. my goal weight is one seventy five but my true weight should be two ten. i will be better off either way. patience is a little thin today. i will write more later. bye for now.