Hair please, I mean, check please!

Hello All,

So, today was a weirdo day.

I started the day off with a cheat. I cheated in fat, not in carbs or sugars but with fat. I decided to get a low carb breakfast bowl and that set the day off to a rough start. As soon as I got to work I chucked the whole thing back up and that left me with an empty stomach for the first part of the day.

But, no worries because we as a company, were going to lunch at a place called Santi's. There is alot of hype about this restaurant but the one time I went there before, all I had to do was use the bathroom to know I didn't want to eat there. I questioned the sanitary aspects of the restaurant.

But, it was Rome and I was gonna be a Roman, besides, I was starving at this point, right?? So, I order a diet coke and we get the menus and I notice there are ZERO fajita options on the menu. I thought, okay well what the HANG am I gonna eat. All the menu items were fried or covered in cheese or fried and covered in cheese.

I saw a taco salad, so I thought, okay, I will order this with no shell and no cheese. Everything else looked safe.....chicken, steak, tomatoes, lettuce, jalapenos, I'm thinking.....alright I can make this work for sure.

They bring the food and I guess someone in the kitchen was feeling sorry for me or else they were just flat out brain dead and instead of simply removing the "taco bowl" they replaced it with frickin pinto beans....WHY!!!! So I had a soupy bean salad concoction and the "chixen" (not chicken) was stewed and shredded...it was a nightmare. I was upset but didn't wanna make a huge deal so I figured I would just pick what was on top and "unbeaned" and then drink my diet coke and just wait til I got home to really eat something.

So, I dig in. Well, pick in anyway. As I am picking away and silently cussing myself for going against my first thought of even eating at this place in the first place, when I go to pick and gather together another bite a long black hair is unwinding from beneath the lettuce and out of the beans. VOMIT!!!!!

Lunch was ruined. Appetite disappeared. Disgust set in.

Santi's, the health board should shut you down. Really.

It's just fundamentally incorrect to begin with to have the audacity to call yourself a mexican restaurant with no fajitas anyway. Jerks.

I did my Zumba today and finished the whole disc again, so that felt good. Nothing major to report. Everything else is going well.

How is everyone else doing??? Sorry for the late post, the day, well....it was a runaway train. I learned my lesson....Don't cheat with fat because you could end up eating hair and your salad shows up on a bed of beans when you do.....good night ya'll.

Hugs......

When is bedtime again?

Water Buddy Zealous.....I did NOT drink my water for the day yesterday and boy am I paying for it today!!! I'm soooooo dried out feeling it is reeeedonkulous. I will get back on the water wagon today though...how have you been doing with it?

I'm super tired today too and I have no reason to be whatsoever. I am hoping this day is over soon but even when it ends I go right into my readings this evening and I barely have any energy now and that is always so draining so wish me luck that I can make it through.

Verdict: 322.5 (still)

But that's an ok number considering I exercised 3 times out of the possible 4 this weekend and all of that was walking, No Zumba :(

I will get back on the ball tomorrow. I have lifted weights and walked though, so that was a good thread in the grand tapestry of things.

I have an early call with some UK clients today and they are not your typical UK clients. I always love talking to the UK clients because they are always so nice and calm and easy to deal with on a business level. These though are pretty high stress and mean. I will make it though....just send your virtual hugs and I know it will be alright.

Best wishes for a wonderful day all of you fabulous people!!!

Hugs......

Ahem....let me clear my throat...

So, I have found out a lot about myself and my "friends" this weekend.

You know when you have those moments where you watch yourself grow, right in front of your own eyes.....that's what I have done this weekend. And, bonus, all from the comfort of my own living room. That's right. Now it makes sense to me when my Mom's reply to me "finding myself" was..."Find yourself????!!! You can find yourself right here at 1234 Main Street" (she actually said our real address). lol.

Looking back now though, she was right. I found some of myself this weekend and it involved being really honest with myself about a few people that I refer to as friends that really aren't very friendly at all.

I have been "friends" with these people I'm talking about for roughly 6 years which is a very long time for me to do anything at all except for stay black and die. I have considered these people to be the type of people that I am always willing to drop everything and run to help if it ever required it.

One of them got married over the weekend and called me about 4 days before to ask me to come to the wedding. Mind you that I haven't spoken to this "friend" in over 3 years, maybe 4 and then clear out of the blue you want me to attend your wedding. Where is the part where we sit down and talk about why we haven't talked in 4 years? Don't I deserve to have that conversation with you before I am forced to pretend I know an entire group of people who are your new nearest and dearest friends and just blend into the crowd like I just saw you yesterday???!!! Wrong answer. Guess what people, standing up for myself felt good. The old me would have went with my tounge bit until it bled and smiled and pretended that life was perfect. I am happy that she is married now, I am happy that she thought to call me. However, I am in a place in life where I also recognize that real friendship is not just about me showing up and being happy for things that are happening with you, I matter too and it should be reciprocated. I am not your private plug and play audience that you can use when it works for you and then ignore when things don't jive or match up with your current trend for the week, day, month, blabbity blah blah blah.

The other friend, this is quite interesting.....just found out about an incident that occurred that after finding out about it was that crucial link that made a whole bevy of other things make all the more sense for how our relationship has evolved and what the moving parts all really mean. The keystone of behavior if you will. This person who makes more money than I do, has a bigger house than I do, has two kids and their father is in the home with them and has a better car and blah blah blah is totally and insanely jealous of me. This person actually dated an ex of mine behind my back, which I just found out this weekend. The same ex who was incessantly stalking me and I was wondering how this ex kept finding out where I was and what I was doing....OHHHHHHHHH that's because my "friend" was relaying everything back to my ex while they were "seeing one another". Totally unacceptable, but believeable. It's not just heresay either. No wonder every time I am over it's like oh, lets eat this together, let's have that together, I know you are doing low carb but you can have these potato chips, they are new. Let me make you a margarita.

STOP BEING A BITCH TO ME. I'M YOUR FRIEND, UNFORTUNATELY YOU HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THAT MEANS AND IT MUST TRANSLATE TO SWORN ENEMY IN YOUR MIND BUT YOU ARE FIGHTING BY YOURSELF BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER SEEN YOU AS MORE THAN SOMEONE WHO I COULD BE THERE FOR AND YOU ARE CONSTANTLY TRYING TO SNAKE YOUR WAY BEHIND MY BACK SO YOU CAN FIND YOUR KNIFE TO STAB ME WITH IT AGAIN!!!! aAAAAHAHFAHDSILFHASDIOFHAO;HFLIWEHRIOWHERIO;!!!!!

(sorry that was a little ranty, but really though...seriously)

Anyhoo, in reflection on these events, I have realized that I am allowed to have feelings and to be offended by or not want to put up with certain "friends" and I don't even have to call them that if they are not serving that function. I am not going to continue to call a fridge a fridge if it no longer keeps my food cold.

I'm worth more than what I have been allowing to happen in some of the relationships that I have. So, all of that to say that:

A. I didn't go to the wedding

and

B. No, I don't want any potato chips you backstabbing winch.

That's all for now. :0)

Hugs.....

Irritated today....going back to bed.

Hey All!

Verdict: 322.5 (I couldn't stay off the scale)

So I am really down in the dumps today (again). I only get paid once a month and it is so difficult to budget everything out. I havent quite figured out a rhythm yet but I am working on it so that I can pay everything and not spend too much on one thing and not enough on the other.

It has been a struggle here at the end of the month to keep the ball rolling. I'm feeling really overwhelmed with all of the responsibility that entails.

It is so difficult to keep up with the grocery bill for sure.

So, once I figure out how to do that I am going to make a huge post about it so that it can help others to manage the food bill to stay healthy. True, I'm not spending money on going out and all that stuff but at the same time I haven't really every purchased this much chicken, fish and meat before and the starchy stuff is cheaper cause it costs less to put it in a box where it can last for eight hundred years.

Things I have figured out we will NOT buy again:

1. Fresh Asparagus - Went rotten on the shelf within the week....actually like 3 days and if you have never smelled fresh asparagus that has gone rotten.....let's just say it's a sweet smelling mix of fish and rotten garbage with syrup on it. Vomit City.

2. More than one type of Lettuce at a time: Unless it is a spring mix all in the same container, lettuce wraps, butter leaf, green leaf and romaine hearts can not be bought all at the same time. It's a waste of money because I can't eat enough to keep up with using it all before it goes rotten.

3. Non-Fat Sour Cream: No reason, plain greek yogurt tastes exactly the same. I'm not even sure it isn't the same thing in a differently labeled package.

4. Name Brand Greek Yogurt: There is no reason for this either. I'm paying at least .40 extra for a colorful label. The taste is no different. AT ALL. Unless it's this yogurt called "Greek Gods" but then again, that doesn't really fit because that is name brand too. I can stick with the "Insert Store Name Here" Greek Yogurt. Seriously.

5.Pre-made dressings with no oil or vegan dressings: Vomit. That is all. I can scrape baby diapers for free.

Those are the only things I can think of right now that I know for a fact I will not be doing. I have much more to figure out and categorize and list.

I'm feeling like I am forgetting to do something or like something is missing. I may just need to go back to bed.

Just feeling kind of like I wanna hide out in my room and play computer games all day long while watching trash tv. ho hum...blah.

My daughter (she is 8) and I went to the park yesterday and we were on the swings and she said "Momma, I'm gonna miss your fat when it's gone."

I laughed and was like, why is that?

She said "because me and Asia get to lay on it and sleep there"

So I said, well you don't have to worry about it for at least a year.......she said "YES!"

I thought that was hilarious.

I will post later......

Hugs....