So today, as cheesy as it is, "The Climb" has been my motivation to get out of bed and get going.
At the advice of the Dukan Dietress (our magical weight loss fairygodmother) I'm going to suck it up and move on.
The most painful thing that I was ever told during a breakup was...ready? Here goes: "Living a Life with you would be like living a life full of despair"
Yep. (note: this person is still a friend of mine)
That was trumped with this breakup though.....although not a flattering combo of words like the above heart crushing statement.....it still goes into the hall of fame
The winner??? "I don't know why we were even together in the first place" ( Nearly 4 years later, just said the day before yesterday) OUCH!!!! (but, this is a friend now too)
Now, that was soul crushing....but...I have put the pieces back together.....and I'm hugging me and validating me.
(Sounds like my "friends" don't have a very high opinion of me, huh? I just have to be thankful that I have people to call a friend I guess)
So, to make it final...one last thing.....
I do want to say, no matter how miserable I may be or how much misery I create or if people can spend 4 years of there life with me an then wonder why they were ever with me to begin with....(sheesh), I am certain that I am here to love and be loved.
So, I won't be a downer anymore. Cause no one wants to hear it anyway.
I will shift the course of my cruise ship toward happy island instead of being caught up in the storm of the broken heart. Deal? Great.
Back to this diet thing.....Dukan was what it was called right??? To celebrate....here are the lyrics to "The Climb"
The Climb lyricsSongwriters: Alexander, J; Mabe, J;
I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on
'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa
175lbs....here I come!
Hugs....
OH MAN! Sweetie there is a problem here, I know you know as well as I do, deep in your heart, but if someone can say such hurtful things to you and make you feel (I'm assuming, since you seem to be a rational human being) like absolute shit, that you need to drop them out of your life like stat.
ReplyDeleteThis is probably why you feel so down dear, you seem to surround yourself with people who not only don't believe in your dreams, but put you down and make you feel crappy. Even if outside of your relationship, and in your new friendship with these losers (sorry guys) they don't say negative things, you still have that lingering reminder of what they did say when you were together and I can't imagine how bad that must make you feel.
Move on lady, get better friends. Anyone who can't support you, and hurts you like that doesn't deserve to be a part of your life. You are simply amazing.
Good on you with the positive attitude. Climb, be better, focus on yourself because you deserve it. Keep working hard and focus. I believe in you, no cheating!
Also fairy godmother? LOL You are simply the cutest :P
-Constance
AKA Dukan Dietress ;)
Also, to give a little insight onto my personal experience with people bringing me down, I was bullied through my weight loss.
ReplyDeletehttp://becomingshehulk.wordpress.com/2012/04/24/being-bullied-while-following-a-diet/
Check it out. I tell a bit of the story here. There are people who just shouldn't be a part of your life. It took me so long to figure it out and I still have people jump in every once in a while who just bring me down. I always hate myself when I'm with them, constantly adjusting my clothes to hide my body, watching what I say, not being myself.
It doesn't feel good. Hope I am not being harsh, I just want so much better for you!
-Constance
I have to second Contance! I understand all about being masochistic and for some stupid reason this "staying friends" thing has been drilled into our heads ... but trust me on this one: it's easier just to rip off the band-aid.
ReplyDeleteAn ex isn't your friend, an ex is your ex.
Different categories.
Really, truly!
NOT FRIEND.
I know it hurts so much to think about not seeing those people again ... but especially the most recent one: NOT FRIEND.