Balls...(Just wanted to say that)

I will NOT be made to feel as though I have done something wrong or that I am not worthy to be loved. Just because another person can not see anything valuable within me that does not lessen me. I deserve love from someone who loves me in the way love is supposed to be. It shouldn't be attached to genitals or words spoken or unspoken or points made or not made. I know I am worth more than I am being made to feel. I know that I don't have to beg for love and I know I don't have to have any friends to be looked upon as a friend. I AM SOMEBODY WONDERFUL. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN AND I WILL ALWAYS BE.

I may be alone on this planet but my father in heaven has a place for me and I will be welcomed with open arms and loved and cared for and HE will NEVER walk away from me or try to make me feel less than or worthless or unwanted like people in this life seem to want me to feel those things on a 24 hour rotation. My own family and the one I thought I was making as well. Stupid me.

If all I have to hope for is the LORD then I have everything. I was an idiot to put my trust in people and listen to their lying mouths and words and empty feelings. Lies, Lies, Lies. I know I haven't done anything to deserve being treated this way in this life by anyone I have held close to me and one day these people will wish that what they promised and said and felt was so important means nothing because they missed the point and that was being loyal and appreciative of someone who would have always been in their corner and on their side. But the battle is more important than the war to most. Very few people can focus on the Journey instead of the path. That is NOT my fault and I will NOT feel less than because they are too foolish to see what they are doing to me. How they are hurting me and how they are making sure what they are hurthing stays broken and hurt and they laugh somewhere inside and I just cry.

Once they do. It will be too late. But even then, they won't care. God help me. You are the only one who even sees who I am. Praise you because of it.

Life, it keeps happening. Then one day it doesn't and you don't even know it anyway.

Hugs...